Thursday, August 30, 2012

Day 2 again


The manor lives on the edge of a line of  tall moss covered mangroves and a singular pussy willow to the left of the entrance that arcs up high enough for a man with even smaller arms to reach out and pluck a handful of furry ends. Three stories, thirty rooms, six bedrooms, six bathrooms, two kitchens, a maids quarters, a mud room, sun room, library, antechamber, and a basement with a world war two howister sitting in its center. All under the name LaFountain.
            There is a young woman with a traveling case in her right hand and a smoke between her ring and middle finger in the left, and she holds the cherry side up and away from her eyes as she fixes the brim of her hat and stares at the way the clay shingles all seem to sag downwards to the eastern side of the house. She wonders why there are more vines on the side of the house that gets less sun, and if its obvious that there isn’t anything inside of the suitcase besides a voice recorder, a carton of cigarettes, and two changes of clothes, and no changes of socks. She walked from the middle of town, turned down to offers for a ride because she didn’t want the rest of the town to know her name before he did. She wasn’t sure how to greet him. So she walks up the six steps to the porch and sets her bag at her feet. She twists at the waist and flicks the butt of the cigarette out of sight, letting the wispy contrail fade before she turns back, stares at her hands, smells the smoke on them, decides she doesn’t care to do anything about it and finally raises her hands to the large red door and flies her fingers, looking for a buzzer or a heavy brass knocker, something a bit more cliché for everything that she has stared at for a half hour walking up the drive, and finds a greyed rope. It leads to a bell the shape of a upturned brass planter the size of a kitchen sink. With a feeble tug the hammer warbles out a note like how Diana imagines whale’s sound to other whales, low and hard and heavy, and there for a very, very long time. Diana watches the bell, she can see its edges warble with noise, and as the moment passes and everything becomes silent again, she turns back to the door, which is now open. There is a man standing there without a spec of hair on his head. He looks at her, tired, but smiling, perhaps thankful, she thinks, that something has happened.
            She waits for him to speak, to at least drop the smile and ask something, but he doesn’t, he takes a step back from the door and gestures to her to follow with both arms, beckoning towards his chest with hands Diana realize have white gloves that clash so hard against his dark brown, so brown its orange and purple, like a gem stone, and she watches him go deeper inside and the light hit him from the window to his right and rolls over him as he spins on his heels and heads for a center staircase. Diana watches him get to the foot of the stairs before she walks inside.

Wednesday, August 29, 2012

Day 1 Journal

Sometimes I think about what it would be like to wake up alone, not in Chicago and really be somewhere. Somewhere that isn’t just the place that I live, with all of these things that I don’t need. Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to end up in a place that’s a lot colder, because that’s all there is to it, coldness and its not about whether or not I’ll make rent, its whether or not I’ll survive the cold. I think I want to be swallowed up in something. I want to not be the one to push my life around, to find our through everything else, to not set a path, because I’m too afraid to choose my own path ahead. I don’t know what I want to do. I kind of just want to go to L.A., leave everybody, leave everything. Maybe there is something to write about out there. Maybe I will be pushed really hard and something inside of me will shift and I’ll know what it is to be pushed to be able to push back. I wonder about all of my little cousins and if they even care about me, or think about me. I think about every person on my father’s side of the family a lot and wonder what it is to be them, what their lives are, how they get on. But I’m not sure if I could ever be a part of their lives again, once everything is at a distance, everything seems to stay at a distance on my father’s side of the family. I don’t hear much from anybody. Sometimes I receive a birthday card, sometimes I don’t. Who knows anymore.

Maybe here’s an idea for a novel:
The dreamer dreams a dream because his is sick of the love that he’s in. The dream woman he wants so desperately actually teaches him, takes him in, they have a relationship instead of mindless dreaming sex. It becomes more important to him, and through it he learns how to control the dream world.

Morpheus, the God of Dreams is summoned in the world by two people who are at the end of their wits. One is an addict and the other is morbidly obese. They want him to help, to help shape the world and peraps make them better people. Mo agrees, really wanting to just hang around the mortal plane and dick around for a while. He finds a great deal of fun in creating a worshiping of himself, it gives him a little power and an underground church forms in his honor.

In Lousiana a young man shows up at the doorfront of an estate claiming to be the grandchild of the estate owner. This is a scam in order to get a place to live and slowly emblezzle and launder money through a friend’s “aquarium” business. The owner of the estate is a very old man, the last man to slay a god, Mo specifically, and send him back into the veil. The old man knows that the boy is not his grandson, but lets him in, and lets him do as he wishes for a while, but snaps and shows his power and his old life. The boy is shocked and actually intrigued by it. Being a con man, he believes it could be a con at first, everything the old man says, but begins to believe and actually form a bond between them as Mo begins to shift the world and they learn more and more. The old man perhaps trains the young man to become his successor.

Mo slays the old man as he gains more and more sway in the mortal realm, seeing the old man as the only real threat left in the plain. The boy stays at the estate for a while and then goes to follow the dream god.

            All the while the dreamer has been improving his skills in dreams and following Mo’s footprints and the goings on across the veil. The gods have notived him as well and have taken him from his life in wakefulness. They are plotting to kill Mo and make him the new God of Dreams to fill the void. He is given a chance to find the god and take him back.

Mo gains power in New Orleans, and both the hunter’s young man and the dreamer seek him, not sure if together or if in opposing. Perhaps, in opposing, as the hunter wants to completely destroy him, while the dreamer seeks to pull him back into the veil.

Mo does fall, out of  window actually, but I’m not sure who would win, or if Mo would simply off himself. I have a feeling that the dreamer would win, that the hunter would not get what he needed, but I also feel like that is me being afraid and writing a safe ending to something.
 I’m not sure, its just an idea right now. I actually like the idea more if the hunter’s “grandchild” was a women. Seems to be a bit better in my mind. No idea though. I just really see Mo falling from a second story window, onto the street, confetti and glitter in a trail behind him. It could be suicide. Maybe that’s the answer. Nobody wins. Not sure though, have to keep thinking about it, maybe try writing some new scenes, or just some random moments tomorrow at work.


Day 1 Again

Hello Z (and anybody else who happens to read this),

I recently had a conversation with you and made me realize how little I write now and figured I would actively try to remedy this. Here's what I have today: An apology to my landlord for my actions over his actions. There was a lot of shouting on my end, which I think was necessary to drive my point. We'll see how he goes along with this.


Dear Sam,

I want to apologize about cursing in our last conversation. No one deserves to be cursed at like that and I want you to know that I’m sorry for it. However, I am not apologizing for the sentiment of the conversation, as I think that your action was belittling to me as well as to Brendan. I will also not apologize for my tone, as I believe the action stepped over a lot of personal boundaries and produced a great deal of justified exasperated emotions from me. I understand if you think that I am wrong in this, but I do not, and won’t be persuaded otherwise.
If you have any comments regarding this note or any other information, please, contact Brendan or myself.
- Jon